Wednesday, 05 May 2010

  • Is your support from your friends really there?

    Could you agree that you have a select group of friends who you can trust? Better yet, could you agree you have at least ONE person who you can trust with your life?

    And then when you decide to do something life changing but you're so passionate about... and you just want them to be there for you, they just run away and pretend they don't know you?

    All I ask is for support and your opinions nothing more. I'm not going to push onto you anything but the favor of being a friend.

    But no, all I get is negativity, negativity, negativity.

    Hello! I'm not as strong as I claim to be. I need to lean somewhere. I need opinions other than my own.

    I've never asked for anything.

    And this is the one true time I do and I get shit.

     If you claim to be my friend, just be there for me.

    That's all I ask.

Thursday, 15 April 2010

Monday, 22 March 2010

  • when is it considered cheating?

    I've had so many discussions on this topic and I never realized until recently how different people have different views on what cheating is in a relationship.

    I'm sure we all know about the obvious like having sex with someone. But what about those gray areas? I mean some people think kissing someone else other than your partner is actually okay?! The reasoning behind it is that there were no feelings involved. Yeah. Okay.

    I had this huge fiasco happen to me about three years ago when I was with my boyfriend at the time. I made a new friend and it happen to be someone with a penis. (The fact that he has a penis changes the entire situation doesn't it?) It was a night where my boyfriend said he was going to go out with his friends so I figured I would go out with mine so I wouldn't be bored that night. What's there to do on a Thursday night? We decided to check out this new club down the road. So, a simple gesture of kindness of hanging out with me at the club turns out that apparently I was "cheating" because I was accompanied by a guy other than my boyfriend at a club... What?? A couple punches to my friend was ensued that was not even necessary. That night, I was dumped before I even got a chance to say anything... What?? We got back together a couple weeks later but ... what?!

    Oh, and my newly found friendship no longer existed after that night.

    A good friend of mine is not allowing her fiance to have a stripper at his bachelor's party. Is that considered cheating? Obviously, he would have the sense not to do anything with the stripper besides enjoy the absurdness of it all. If my friend hears word that a stripper was part of his party, she's calling the entire wedding off. Is that too much?
     
    Is grinding with someone other than your partner on the dance floor considered cheating?

    What about lying about your relationship status to people you've just met?

    Do you think our morals effect what we consider cheating or are there a set of rules that everyone should memorize before getting romantically involved with someone?

    What would you consider cheating?

    -Elle-

Thursday, 18 March 2010

  • I've been having the need to run; where? Anywhere...

    The sun is finally peeking out and warming our skins after our Nor'easter. I feel that tension in my department; everyone is getting antsy to get outside. I have a pretty sweet location in my department right next to the windows. I see the sun rays peeking beneath the window blinds and very faintly feel the warmth it emanates.

    As I'm walking outside of the building my anticipation rises. I finally have the freedom to roll down my car windows and let the breeze ripple through my hair as I drive home (a 30 minute drive give or take) from work. And as I drive, I'm starting to see people take advantage of this warm weather. I see people walking their dogs, others cycling, some walking and then I see people running...running...

    I absolutely LOVE running. Lately, I've been wanting to run every single day. If this good weather keeps up with the days slowly getting longer, in no time, my desire will be fulfilled! I just love the physics and sounds of running. I love hearing my feet pound the pavement in an almost beat of its own, how my breathing goes into rhythm with the beat of my feet,  how my arms are in sync with my legs, how my body is fighting to put oxygen into my lungs. I love how if I just focus on the horizon, or not at all, it seems as if I'm not even running.

    I love experiencing the runner's high.

    My friend ask me why I love running so much. Its such an intense activity!

    We were given bodies to abuse or use. I personally want to use the body that I was given. I love testing the limits of what this body can do. It makes me feel... alive. Obviously, we all take for granted that we breathe, that we live. (I admit I do!) Whenever I feel "out-of-wack" I just put on my running sneakers and go out for a run. It allows me to refocus on the simpler things in life. It also allows me to be more in tune with myself. It even helps me build confidence! I don't know, I just like the idea that I have to work for each intake of oxygen. I feel it takes a strong will to put one foot in front of the other even if your body seems like it'll collapse with each step. I love the human body!

    Ha, wanna go for a run?

    Do you partake in an activity that allows you to fully appreciate your body?
     

    -Elle-


Thursday, 04 March 2010

  • Cold feet?

    The other day, I was thinking about my career choice thanks to a conversation held in the series "The Office" (I'm getting addicted!) about art. They were discussing on how being an artist was more of a hobby than a career choice. I wonder if people still have that mindset... Then my thoughts switched over to my teachers back in high school and grade school. I remember they were always praising me on my artwork. "Were they really honest when they said I had a future in art? Were they just being teachers afraid of getting sued if they utter even a negative comment?" And then I wonder, "Am I good enough?"

    Maybe I'm getting slight cold feet again but I am getting a little nervous. It is true that the Art field is very competitive and you have to be really good at what you do in order to even be considered! (Unless, you have your ways with the boss, ha!)

    And then I came to wonder was the only reason why I decided to go into the art field because of the fact that people told me I was good? I mean, don't get me wrong I absolutely love designing, drawing, crafting and I'll say I'm decent!

    But am I good
    ?

    I feel like I'm starting to lose focus due to my excitement that I finally have a life! (I haven't had much of one since junior year of high school, so let me live a little) However, I need to make use of my "idle" time. No, I need to make my idleness count. Okay, I currently have a great internship so it's definitely a foot in the door and a great opportunity to spice up my resume. However, I must do more. I must achieve more. I must achieve to be one of the best if not the best! I must...

    ...(Maybe I should've been a nurse).

     
    *Graphic I made a while back

    -Elle-

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